One of those days.

๐ŸŒฟ So this was my day today.. a series of messy mistakes. I forgot the kids had non uniform day, I missed my morning lecture as my daughter needed to see the doctor. I smashed the coffee jar, stalled the car, was late for the afternoon lecture and sweated the whole afternoon. BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY.. I handled it.<<<<<<
Years ago this happened every day, I dropped things I broke things, I messed up, I snapped & I cried. Every. Day.

I had become consumed by anxiety & self criticism. A dropped glass meant I was a shit home maker, shouting at the kids made me a terrible mum, & being late for nursery meant all the other mums were slagging me off.

ALL FALSE. And NOW I know it!!

๐ŸŒฟ Today I laughed about it, I took a moment to take a picture, I breathed through it. I brought the kids back got them changed and carried on. ๐ŸŒฟ This may not be much to you my appreciated reader, but to me this is achievement. This is me reflecting on how calm I am. Something I couldn’t have imagined saying about myself.

๐ŸŒฟ Isn’t retrospect fabulous? If someone had told me back then that I’d be able to have a 12 hour series of unfortunate events and not drop a tear, swearword or clench a fist. I wouldn’t have believed them. But this is TRUE. And so..

IT IS POSSIBLE TO LET GO OF ANXIETY.

IT IS POSSIBLE TO CHANGE.

IT IS POSSIBLE TO GROW.

IT IS POSSIBLE TO ESCAPE DEPRESSION.

I did it. Well done me. Bring on tomorrow ๐Ÿ’—

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